10 Weeks

This is my tenth week of pregnancy. I am a bundle of nervous energy. I am scared and happy all at the same time. I keep thinking "Can this really be happening?". After trying so long it's hard to settle into the knowledge that you are pregnant.

I have also been reading the What to Expect boards and the BabyCenter boards and they just make me nervous or irritate me.

There are ALOT of opinions about child birth, raising children , breast feeding etc. I try to respect everyone's opinions because I think each person has the right to determine what they think is best for them and their family. I personally know that I want an epidural. I can't seem to find anyone else on these boards that feels the same way. It seems like everyone on there will only do natural birth with no drugs. Am I a bad person? I don't think so.

My doctor is fully in support of having an epidural. She had two herself with her children and if she's been to medical school and studied this stuff shouldn't I be able to trust her? I am just asking myself these questions of course. I commend the women that can give birth without drugs, I am just not one of them.

I guess I thought I would find some support on these boards, but I have found my true real life girlfriends are much better sounding boards for all of my weird questions than strangers on the internet. I should have known that!