It's really hard to blog. I used to do it all the time but I have been busy! Eve Katherine is 13 weeks old today. Tomorrow she is offically three months old and I can't believe how fast the time has flown by. This was my first week back to work and it has been harder than I could have even imagine.
Monday night I got both of our stuff ready for the hard morning that I knew Tuesday would be. I got her dressed, fed her and snuggled with her for a while. I barely slept at all because I was so anxious. I have only left her for maybe a total of 6 hours since I gave birth to her so I had lots of odd feelings. I dropped her off at the sitter and then sat in my car on their street and sobbed my eyes out. I called Anthony and he talked to me for a while about how she would be fine, and I knew she would be but still...she wasn't with me. I also called my mom. My mom has become one of my best friends since I became pregnant. I call her every single day numerous times. She just said that it sucks and you don't want to leave them but you have to. She always worked too and I never felt like she wasn't part of my life or anything, I just hate leaving her. I cried all the way to work. Luckily I work with some amazing moms who know exactly what I went through that morning so they were all very supportive about it.
I got home on Tuesday night around 6pm and she fell asleep at 7:30. She was exhausted so I let her sleep and just rocked her. Wednesday morning I cried even more because I felt like I had only seen my baby for a few hours in a 24 hour period. It was harder than the first day because I knew it was going to be like this every morning.
It was better yesterday and today. I got up and spent some extra time rocking her and seeing her beautiful face. I cannot wait to get her this evening because I will have until Monday morning to spend with her.
She has been the most amazing baby so far. She started sleeping through the night completely on December 8th. She goes to sleep between 8:30 and 9pm and before I went back to work she wouldn't wake up until 7 or 8am. Now we get up at 6am to get ready to go to work and the sitter. She smiled at us for the first time on November 23rd and it was the best feeling in the world. She is cooing now and smiling and gripping her rattle. She can sit up in her bumbo seat and she loves to just look around. She loved the Christmas lights during the holidays. She would just stare at them in awe.
Parenthood is truly amazing. People tell you that there is no feeling like looking at your baby, and there really isn't. Seeing her with Anthony makes me love my husband even more than I thought possible. He and I have come even closer through this parenthood part of our journey. He is the most amazing husband and father and I am thankful for him each and every day.
The dogs all love Eve. They are very protective of her and love when she coos. I am so happy these days. We plan to have another baby in 2012 as of right now. We are hoping to have a son to complete our family but will be happy if we have a little girl too of course. I am so in love with my little girl that I can't imagine having enough love for another little one but I know that you can.
Monday night I got both of our stuff ready for the hard morning that I knew Tuesday would be. I got her dressed, fed her and snuggled with her for a while. I barely slept at all because I was so anxious. I have only left her for maybe a total of 6 hours since I gave birth to her so I had lots of odd feelings. I dropped her off at the sitter and then sat in my car on their street and sobbed my eyes out. I called Anthony and he talked to me for a while about how she would be fine, and I knew she would be but still...she wasn't with me. I also called my mom. My mom has become one of my best friends since I became pregnant. I call her every single day numerous times. She just said that it sucks and you don't want to leave them but you have to. She always worked too and I never felt like she wasn't part of my life or anything, I just hate leaving her. I cried all the way to work. Luckily I work with some amazing moms who know exactly what I went through that morning so they were all very supportive about it.
I got home on Tuesday night around 6pm and she fell asleep at 7:30. She was exhausted so I let her sleep and just rocked her. Wednesday morning I cried even more because I felt like I had only seen my baby for a few hours in a 24 hour period. It was harder than the first day because I knew it was going to be like this every morning.
It was better yesterday and today. I got up and spent some extra time rocking her and seeing her beautiful face. I cannot wait to get her this evening because I will have until Monday morning to spend with her.
She has been the most amazing baby so far. She started sleeping through the night completely on December 8th. She goes to sleep between 8:30 and 9pm and before I went back to work she wouldn't wake up until 7 or 8am. Now we get up at 6am to get ready to go to work and the sitter. She smiled at us for the first time on November 23rd and it was the best feeling in the world. She is cooing now and smiling and gripping her rattle. She can sit up in her bumbo seat and she loves to just look around. She loved the Christmas lights during the holidays. She would just stare at them in awe.
Parenthood is truly amazing. People tell you that there is no feeling like looking at your baby, and there really isn't. Seeing her with Anthony makes me love my husband even more than I thought possible. He and I have come even closer through this parenthood part of our journey. He is the most amazing husband and father and I am thankful for him each and every day.
The dogs all love Eve. They are very protective of her and love when she coos. I am so happy these days. We plan to have another baby in 2012 as of right now. We are hoping to have a son to complete our family but will be happy if we have a little girl too of course. I am so in love with my little girl that I can't imagine having enough love for another little one but I know that you can.
You're a wonderful mom! She is a beautiful baby and a most special granddaughter! I love you both, immensely!
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